Day 36. Backsliding.
Time to own up to something: I've been backsliding, and it's starting to show up everywhere.
It started on January 31st, my birthday and the last day of Project 43, and I had just crushed my first goal. That night I was tired after celebrating and I decided to not write a blog post. Maybe I felt entitled to a night off after 31 days of hard work...I don't know. So I created a placeholder post right before bed with the intent to come back the next morning and get back on track.
I forgot.
That left me trying to write two blog posts after 10 p.m. on February 1st. I finished the Day 31 post and was almost done with the Day 32 post but accidentally deleted it while previewing. Fortunately, I still had all of the data in the preview window so I didn't need to recreate anything. Unfortunately, you can't select and copy text from the preview window because it's an image, which meant I would have retype the whole thing. A lot of work had gone into that summary of Project 43 and retyping took forever. When I finally published after 11:30 p.m. I was too tired to write the Day 33 post, which was going to be an explanation of Mindblown, the second phase of Mission 44. So I created another placeholder instead.
On Day 34, I won my DietBet! After a day of taking the little one to sell her Girl Scout Cookies and then doing Super Bowl stuff, I wasn't in any condition to write even one post, let alone two. I was upset about this because I really wanted to talk about my first DietBet win after losing three times last year. So I created another placeholder.
On Day 35, I didn't even create a placeholder. I didn't go back and write the other two posts. I barely even kept my journal. Every night before I go to bed I will prepare the next day's page, and I woke up on Monday to find that I hadn't done it. So I got a good start by making my bed and began making the journal page as I went through my day. I got on the scale to find this:
Worse, I woke up this morning and realized that I hadn't measured my after dinner blood sugar, taken my medications, or even completed my journal entry for the day:
One of the cornerstones of Mission 44 is accountability, and because of the commitment to keeping records every day I discovered that I've started going easy on myself. It seems like I always do stuff like this, and it's why Weight Watchers, South Beach, and so many other weight loss programs haven't worked for me: I get a little bit of success and let off the gas.
This is why I track weight every single day. This is why I take blood sugar measurements every single day. I caught myself backsliding before it was too late today. That is a victory in itself. At the beginning of Mission 44 I thought that diet would be the number one factor in achieving my weight loss goals but this morning I realized that accountability is the key.
I will achieve my goal. It's time to get back to work...no letting up this time.
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General disclaimers: In my posts I describe things that I am doing to reclaim my health based on what I know about myself. Please don't emulate my actions. I'm not a doctor, and when you read things in my blog they are not meant as advice to you or anyone else. They are simply a record of my own experience. Things like abandoning prescribed medicines and walking for miles while dealing with morbid obesity are bad ideas, but I'm an idiot and do them anyway. Don't be like me. Talk to your doctor before making major lifestyle changes, please. Also, if I write about a product, service or book and provide a link to it, you should assume that I'm part of a related affiliate program. This blog needs to be supported somehow!
It started on January 31st, my birthday and the last day of Project 43, and I had just crushed my first goal. That night I was tired after celebrating and I decided to not write a blog post. Maybe I felt entitled to a night off after 31 days of hard work...I don't know. So I created a placeholder post right before bed with the intent to come back the next morning and get back on track.
I forgot.
That left me trying to write two blog posts after 10 p.m. on February 1st. I finished the Day 31 post and was almost done with the Day 32 post but accidentally deleted it while previewing. Fortunately, I still had all of the data in the preview window so I didn't need to recreate anything. Unfortunately, you can't select and copy text from the preview window because it's an image, which meant I would have retype the whole thing. A lot of work had gone into that summary of Project 43 and retyping took forever. When I finally published after 11:30 p.m. I was too tired to write the Day 33 post, which was going to be an explanation of Mindblown, the second phase of Mission 44. So I created another placeholder instead.
On Day 34, I won my DietBet! After a day of taking the little one to sell her Girl Scout Cookies and then doing Super Bowl stuff, I wasn't in any condition to write even one post, let alone two. I was upset about this because I really wanted to talk about my first DietBet win after losing three times last year. So I created another placeholder.
On Day 35, I didn't even create a placeholder. I didn't go back and write the other two posts. I barely even kept my journal. Every night before I go to bed I will prepare the next day's page, and I woke up on Monday to find that I hadn't done it. So I got a good start by making my bed and began making the journal page as I went through my day. I got on the scale to find this:
This is why I track weight every single day. This is why I take blood sugar measurements every single day. I caught myself backsliding before it was too late today. That is a victory in itself. At the beginning of Mission 44 I thought that diet would be the number one factor in achieving my weight loss goals but this morning I realized that accountability is the key.
I will achieve my goal. It's time to get back to work...no letting up this time.
*********************
General disclaimers: In my posts I describe things that I am doing to reclaim my health based on what I know about myself. Please don't emulate my actions. I'm not a doctor, and when you read things in my blog they are not meant as advice to you or anyone else. They are simply a record of my own experience. Things like abandoning prescribed medicines and walking for miles while dealing with morbid obesity are bad ideas, but I'm an idiot and do them anyway. Don't be like me. Talk to your doctor before making major lifestyle changes, please. Also, if I write about a product, service or book and provide a link to it, you should assume that I'm part of a related affiliate program. This blog needs to be supported somehow!
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